This is just a really weird feeling. I'm in art school now, studying pretty much only art, and yet I have feel the least like an artist in my life. I knew coming into that it was going to be challenging, I just didn't realize how much it was going to attack at myself and my believed so talent.

I guess I've just been too over confident of myself. I always knew there were better artists than me out there, but I naively also believed that I thought I almost knew everything there is to making art. All I thought I needed to do was improve my talent.

Turns out I need to improve on my creativity, too. I suppose I've never been judged on my creativity, more judged on what more I could do with a piece of my art.

Other people than just my professors have been telling me I need to excel in this. That I need to develop more in this. It hurts to hear it, but I know it's true. That makes it hurt even more.

I will admit, I'm a pretty sensitive person when someone is personally attacking me, and especially my art. Yet, at the same time I know that is what's going to make me better. I learned that early on in my first drawing class with my hard-ass teacher. I've always really known that, it just hasn't hit me as hard as it is now.

I'm just having a catch-22 right now. Having all these feelings hurt and knowing it's for the best. It's a hard position to be in.

Mostly, I know I just need to work harder and think about my projects more.

(This was pretty much written out so I could just get it out and make myself feel better about it. There's something about having the words straight out right in front of me that helps me realize. You might have read this thinking "Yeah, we all have predicaments, get over yourself", but I'm more hoping that this will make you feel that you're not the only one feeling it too, if you are.)